"♥最爱的人伤我最深♥"

Profile Stories Screams Escapes

PHOTOS AT NEVERLAND
Saturday, July 25

Written @ Saturday, July 25, 2009

NEVERLAND
Friday, July 24

Have already plan to bring frank & his gf to see the thai disco.
I knew that he wun join as he cun enjoy going these places with me around.
He will feel restricted coz with me around,
he cun hug of fool around with those gals..

He say he will go to ONG's pub & I know after that
he will sure go other thai disco.
BINGO!I'm right.
1+ he sms me & say that he will go to 1 of the thai disco at pearl center.
Ask him to join me to thai disco,he dun wan but he can go other
thai disco with ONG..
It's fine with me coz I've already expected..

Around 3am,he sms & ask me am I done?
I say not yet,if he want he can come or he go home 1st.
At last,he came & as usual he just sit there & sms..
I dun wanna bother as I know he came was just for the sake of
showing his face & not to accompany or join in the fun with us..
It's ok,at least I dun have to waste cab fare to go home...

I think & can feel that if I go out more often & get to know
more friends,I will leave him 1 day....
It's just the matter of time....
Now I'm trying & start doing it....
So,my dear friends who read my blog,please support me..
Help me get out of these DARKNESS & SADNESS DAY as soon as possible...

Written @ Friday, July 24, 2009

SERVE THEM RIGHT
Thursday, July 23

He was having NFL soccer match.
After his game,he call & ask me whether want to go to a new Thai disco.

Since he ask me to go so I tack along..
(He ask me go coz that was a new place.
He dun know any of the Thai gals there so he have no worries..)
Think he must be surprise that I would join
as I think he would thought that I wun go
coz tomorrow I got to work..
But I purposely go & brought fank gf along..

When he went home to change,
his dad ask him why still ask me go out
as I need to work tomorrow.
He told his dad that I wanted to go!!
See,he push everything to me.

Why I know coz his dad told me so.
His dad knew that he was the 1 who ask me go out.
He just pretend as if he doesn't want him to know
that I told his dad that he ask me go Thai disco.
(By the way,is not that I want to tell his dad,is his dad ask me where am I going & so I told him)

Maybe because I was there,they left quite early coz he cun have fun!!
After that we went for supper.
ONG & RAY join us..
Ray was trying to be sarcastic & say why I dun drink with him.

When eric's b'day he drunk with me.
I tell him off that you didn't invite me to your b'day celebration what.
He say coz all man so he didn't invite me & than I replied him.
Than too bad lor not that I dun wanna drink with you on your b'day!!
Think he was paiseah & quite piss off with my answer.

Ray ask me about how was that place & I say not bad but too big.
I'm not very sure about Thai disco coz I never been to Thai disco.
He say dun bluff,last time he saw me at RESORT.
Than I tell him off :
"FYI,that was the 1st time I go Thai disco."
I've never been to sabai sabai or icon etc..
He kept quiet as I think he didn't know that,
that was the day which I caught eric go Thai disco again
& ran away when he knew that I was there as he thought I didn't see him..

Well,think ERIC & ONG was awkward at that moment...
Serve them right,I wanna voice out long time ago
& I should thank this IDIOT RAY gave me this chance :p

Written @ Thursday, July 23, 2009

10 YEARS ANNIVERSARY
Wednesday, July 22

Today is our 10 year anniversary that we get to know each other.
It suppose to be a peaceful day & we are having dinner tonight for celebration.

I'm really dam sway as he found out that someone log into his msn.
The old version of MSN was when u log into MSN & when others log into your MSN,
your side will log out automatically..
The new version was when you log into MSN & when others log into your MSN,
it will show other party has log into your MSN & it will show the computer name
which the person who log into his MSN.

He already know who log into his MSN & he act blur & ask me to check is there any
software can break people password & ask me to help him investigate.
He already know that person is me but he just act & say that
"This person must be paranoid or going crazy"

He say that after all these incident,he will change all his account PW
& lock all his gadgets as he was fearful & worry of this person.
(which was referring to me)
He was going more crazy than this IDIOT
(obviously THIS IDIOT was referring about ME)

He block me & that's why I didn't know that he log in MSN.
I know that it's not right for meto log into his MSN.
Actually,my purpose of logging into his MSN was just to hope to see
that 1 day,he will unblock me.
But this never happen...
He not only block me,he block all the person I know
so that others wun tell me that he log into MSN.
I was wondering why must he block me?
What's wrong of using MSN if you have nothing to hide?

As a husband & wife,
if he can do to that extend I really find it meaningless & hopeless..
There are really NO TRUST & FAITH anymore.
Not Now & not in the future...
I was just waiting & hoping that 1 day,
I will totally give up & have the courage leave him...
Think this sentence :
"This person must be paranoid or going crazy"
was the best 10 years anniversary present he gave me....

Written @ Wednesday, July 22, 2009

ANOTHER BORING DAY
Tuesday, July 21

Just another boring day for me..
Recently,I've been smoking very heavily...
Smoke almost 1 packet per day.
Whenever I felt boring,I just went down to smoke.
Squatting down,smoke & think of what's wrong with me.
But till now I never get my answer...
Hopfully,1day I will really wake up & be ready to move on....

Written @ Tuesday, July 21, 2009

FEELING SUCKS
Sunday, July 19

Having dim sum with Frank,his gf,Can & Can's Mum at Shawn House.
Ask mum to come along & dun know what's wrong with her.
She doesn't want to go.
Forget about it,I cun force her since she dun feel like going.

While we were having dim sum,my mum call me.
Ask me who was there & I told her.
After receiving her call,than I realise why she doesn't wanna join.
I really give up coz whenever I ask her to go,
she always have ample of excuses..
I'm just fxxking tired & dun wanna know
& interfere as I myself already had too many PROBLEMS!!

Went home after that as I was tired & have to iron my clothes.
Frank went to shop around in orchard with his gf &
we supposed to have dinner with him as he ask me to ask frank out for dinner.
Last min,he has viewing & got buyer wanna view 845 & so our dinner was cancelled..

After he finish his viewing,he call me & ask me to eat as he was very hungry.
So we went to the nearby coffee shop to have our early dinner.

While we were having dinner he told me that today ONG jio him to SPA.
As he was too busy so he cun go...
(I believe that if he have time he will sure go)
I just mention that didn't ONG know that you had already went SPA on Thursday?
He sound so agitated & replied me :
"WHY?U DUN TRUST ME THAT I WENT SPA ON THURSDAY?"

I was really stunned by his reaction as to me it was just a normal conversation.
Each time when he go SPA,it will cost him at least $130.00.
He will almost go once per week.
Can you imagine how much will it cost a month?

He keep saying that he has no money.
I personally think that it was really expensive
& that's why I just mention that he had already went this week.
If he goes today,that means this week he went twice.
Since he keep saying that he has no money,
why he can spend such kind of money?

Now a days,his attitude towards me was totally different.
As if I owe him million of dollars.
He tenses to raise his voice & get agitated easily.
I was thinking,WTF I dun owe you anything?
Ever since we get married,he didn't give me any allowance.

To me,it's not the money issue.
Is that as a husband,
shouldn't you give allowance to your wife every month?
Moreover,recently he has been closing many cases.
I know he earn lots of commission
but he still claim that he had no money.

I've been supporting my mum & paying for everything in 845
which my mum was staying.
Did he ever help me to pay anything?
Rental,PUB bill,my mum HP bill,Internet etc...
The answer is NO!!!
I've never ask any money from him.
As a husband,shouldn't him help his wife to lighten her burden?
He can spend money on drinking,
go SPA every week,go facial every month
but not even a single cent he give me.

After I move back to his house,
we say that let's try again to gain back
the TRUST & FAITH to save this marriage.
But look at the things he did,
lock his HP,log off his MSN immediately when I ask him
to open up to let me see,block me in his MSN etc.
This doesn't show me that he was trying to gain back my
TRUST & FAITH & wanna save this marriage..
I really feel sick,down,moody & tired..
WTF was happening to my life?
Why must I tolerate & endure all these?
Who can understand how I feel....
My life was really sucks....

Written @ Sunday, July 19, 2009

Disclaimer

Spammers will not be entertained here. Rippers you can just simply get off my blog. Copyrighted @ yoururl.bs.com. If it's possible, tag me :)
Haters > [x]

Online Users

Melodies

Music Playlist at MixPod.com