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Thursday, October 8

Recently,Whenever I write my blog,
my tears will flow down my face automatically..
No matter I'm in office or at home..
I will cry & cry & cry...

I know this is really unhealthy for my baby
but I just can't control.
This shows that how happy am I ;_;

After all the WARS through phone & SMS,
finally I manage to cool myself down.

Every time when we quarrel,
I will become very agitated & emotional.

Never ever once we will solved our problems.
We just leave it aside & take it as nothing had happened.

The THORNS will leave in our heart & accumulate..
This is what both of us are doing..

Maybe to him it will avoid quarrel but to me,
it's a TIME BOMB & we will explode anytime..
Since he wants to handle in a unhealthy way,
I will follow his way..

I told myself that I have to be strong.
I dun need his sympathy & accompany..
Even I'm not feeling well & have problems,
I will HANDLE & KEEP TO MYSELF.
I will NEVER OPEN UP TO him AGAIN!!

I have to learn to be independent.
I will not depend on him anymore.
He no longer have any obligation.
I strongly believed & will
force myself to do it..

I GIVE UP,I REALLY GIVE UP & SURRENDER!!!
EVERYDAY,I'VE BEEN WASHING MY FACE WITH MY TEARS..
Not a single day I'm HAPPY.
WHY DO WE HAVE TO TORTURE OURSELVES??
HE IS NOT HAPPY & I'M NOT HAPPY TOO!!!

Now I really understand the feeling of HEART DIES..
Just like few years ago he GIVE UP our relation..
I totally can understand how he feels that moment..
Coz I feel it myself now.

The feelings is SUCKS & UNBEARABLE.
But I just need time to overcome like what he did.

Go out with friends & drink to forget the pain.
Although I can't drink now but I still can go out.
I can sit down & enjoy their accompany.
I believe they will be willing to accompany me more than him..

I will not request anything from him in the future.
I TOTALLY FEEL HOPELESS,GIVE UP
& LOST CONFIDENCE IN THIS MARRIAGE...

It will be another SAD ENDING STORY IN MY LIFE...
THANKS HIM FOR ALL THE PAINFUL MEMORIES...

I guess he will never know how I felt.
He can't be bothered & concern about my feelings.

I will not be what I used to be.
Care,Concern,Kan Cheong,Bothered & Loving..

There will only be unusual silent peaceful...
It's A COLD & NO LOVE PEACEFULNESS.....

Side Track
Meeting the gals for dinner tonight.
I'm really looking forward ...

Meeting up with the gals
& chi chat really can brighten up my day :)

Too bad caicai have to start work soon.
The time of meeting up with them will be lesser.
Haiz...Feel so sad... :(

So you gals must remember.
Even you all are busy,
you all must meet up with me again...
If not I will be a
LONELY GAL living in a LONELY WORLD...

Written @ Thursday, October 08, 2009

BAD MIGRAINE
Wednesday, October 7

Had bad migraine since last night..
He never tried to explain to me why he lied..

Maybe he also don't even bothered whether
I'm sad,angry & disappointed or he is lost of words.

I don't feel like talking to him.
I hope he could vanish in my world.

Although I will be extremely sad but
I believe time can heal my wound...

Written @ Wednesday, October 07, 2009

LEOPARD NEVER CHANGE IT SPOTS
Tuesday, October 6

Leopard NEVER CHANGE IT SPOTS.

He really makes me very very upset & disappointed again...
Going out with his friends is really so important to him.
He rather choose to lie to me AGAIN & AGAIN.
He said that he went out with his agent on friday but he lied.
He went out with his friends to THAI DISCO till 5am!!!
He simply dun care about how I feel if I found out he LIE!!!

I personally think that he is not ready to be a father.
He cannot let go the lifestyle he likes & wanna lead.
I really think that he should stay single instead of married.

Married life is not suitable for him at all..
He don't need a wife.
What he need is a group of friends can drink & enjoy with him.

What he say are all RUBBISH & LIES.
I will never TRUST him again MY LIFE.
NEVER EVER !!!!!!

Maybe I'm a USELESS,UNREASONABLE & TERRIBLE WIFE.
That's the reason why it lead us to this situation.
I wanna thank his GOOD BROTHER..
Guess he really love to be with them more than me.

I pray hard to god & hope that
HIS BROTHERS can be
close & accompany him for his rest of his life..
Because what he need is not A FAMILY,
is his BROTHERS & PARTY KAKI.

I really thought that after I have baby he will change.
Ya he did,maybe for few weeks & there he go again.
He can't resist TEMPTATION at all..
I don't blame him,I blame MYSELF.
All these is I get it myself for believing that
HE WILL CHANGE!!!

I really wish him all the best &
be happy forever with his BROTHERS.
I will not interfere into his life again.
He can do whatever he wants,go wherever he like.
Earn his BIG BUCKS
& he can COUNT ME OUT!!!
I will be OUT OF HIS LIFE FOREVER!!!

Think this is the best happiest lifestyle
he is looking forward....
He dun need a FAMILY.
FAMILY doesn't makes him HAPPY
but give him WORRIES & UNHAPPINESS..

BROTHERS & PARTY KAKI WILL BRIGHTEN UP HIS DAYS
Maybe someday he will realised & figure out
which is more IMPORTANT IN HIS LIFE..
But to me,I've already realised what kind of MAN he is...

Written @ Tuesday, October 06, 2009

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